Sewol Ferry

heart goes out to all of them.

especially those kids that have already sacrificed for other students and have died.

Finding Personal Projects
  1. Think back to what you loved when you were a child. If you wanted to be a fireman, what did a fireman mean to you? Think of these underlying impulses because you may have known more about who you were then than you do now. 
  2. Pay attention to the work you gravitate to. Even given a certain task, is there a particular area you love?
  3. Pay attention to what you envy. Jealousy is an ugly emotion but it tells the truth. Ask yourself who you envy, and you should have an answer and pursue your own version of those roles.

Quiet by Susan Cain is a book I’ve been reading and this section hit me hard. Especially as career goals comes up as a college student. 

I remember used to really like toys. Toy cars and legos were my favorite. I would spend hours just reorganizing its structure and admiring my hard work. I also like watching wrestling. but idk if there’s any underlying impulses for that. I hope not.

Relevancy is a huge factor for the work I gravitate to. Unless I feel the motivation to learn something because it matters, I usually quit.

I don’t know who I envy. I just generally like people that are able to be themselves and do big things. Sam Walton, Ayrton Senna seem like really cool people tho.

biggest fear

My biggest fear is that I’ll value and obsess over numbers. I just hope numbers won’t cause me to get angry or happy. Right now these numbers are probably my test scores and GPA, but in the future, it’ll probably be money, without a doubt. 

I just think its pretty shallow when you value quantity over quality. I want to keep my focus on the big picture and not on incremental changes. If everyone shares this perspective, it would change school admissions, job searches, and just overall dynamics of society. 

(Source: scrape-your-knee, via catholicnun)